I Know, Allah Knows Everything...

I KNOW, ALLAH KNOWS EVERYTHING.....

I was waiting for the rain to pours this morning..just like other previous morning..but, I know Allah knows everything..we always want the sunshine, but He knows there must be rain..
Alhamdulillah is not raining..sunshine through my window comes out..huhu..what a lovely day!Then I know, Allah knows everything.
What to do this morning ya??hmm..after done my Subuh prayer..just lying on my bed again (guling-guling) n takes my 'Fofie' so called my favourite blanket..huhu..wanna sleep? nahh..don't want la..better do something rather than sleep..
Hmm..then I saw my long time no see diary, OMG...(Ya Allah should be)..before somebody use the Kalimah Allah..we should used it more often..huhu..I miss this red handmade diary..I created it since my secondary school..before this I forgot where I put it..yeah!

I opened it..wow..wonderful..all memories are blend together in mind again..hmm..I miss the old time..the old memories of sweet, sour, bitter..laugh and tears..all..

I don't know how to explain or express my feeling right now.. I still kept my 17th birthday card given by my old time sister..(old time??)..I got the card before the big exam of my life..SPM..and that's the last card ever I get..seriously, I miss my sister..I miss our time together..laughter, sometimes stupid things we do,makes us laugh like crazy...talk to each other, share story and feeling together..but now..she's gone..gone not with the winds..but with somebody takes her away from me...why it happened so drastically..what was I done to her, makes she throw me away..without any explanation..tears start to pours again..by exchange of rains for today Sunday morning..

I keep asking my selft..why it happened to me..(duhh..don't start it) I have learn something from it..Love for human is for a while , but Love for Allah is eternal..

I know..that this is part of life..I know..Allah know what is best for us..so why should we complain?? But I'm not complaining..just wondering why it happened to me..(huhu..don't say like that..)..remember, stop thinking negative to everything happened in your life dear..(I talk to myself)..Allah test us often, He test us not to punish us, but to help us meet tomorrow..Everything happened with a reason behind it..I know, Allah just test me..by often Allah test me, I will become more and more stronger than before..and every pain Allah gives me, provided my patient will follow with rich gain someday..InsyaAllah..I believed in that..

I get the meaningful lesson from what happened around me..Love for human being is for a while, but Love for Allah is eternal..

As I remember, I love my father more than anyone will do..still Allah takes him away from me..at the time when I was still need him, still hoping for him..my mom says, Allah Love him more than we do..When I love my longtime boyfriend, my first love, who always be a good listener for all sad and happiness..always be a good advisor for any confusion that I having through..still Allah takes him away from me..

And when I love 'Si Putih' my lovely cat that I have..always running to me when she saw me, a friend who being with me at the times I'm happy and sad..I don't know that the cat understand my feeling or not..but she's my good friend,when I sad, she sit next to me..without doing anything, I know she wanted to be with me, without any understanding words, I know she wanted to comfort me..still Allah takes her away from me..and When I love my sister more than she do..I took every words she told me..and still Allah takes her away..far away from me..huh..should I love anyone or anything after this..


I'm tired of felt frustrated, sad and disappointed..but I know Allah knows everything..He knows what is best for me..so whenever I'm down, and whenever I fell..that everything is going wrong..It's just Allah 's way to make my spirit strong..